Thursday, September 29, 2011

Knitting

I know that close on the heel's of Fall, Winter will be tripping in with plenty of snow and blow to delight many a child.
Trouble is...
Snow tends to make my toe's cold. Once that happen's I have a very hard time getting warmed back up.
Since I like warm feet, and love homemade sock's, I thought I'd get busy making some...







Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Finding The Peaceful Things...*sigh*

Sometimes the peaceful things in life are hard to find...unless you look around.
I have been on a peace finding quest for a while and I do believe I'm starting to get the hang of it.
I would love to go to some far off destination, but alas and alack, tis not in my immediate future, and I am totally ok with that.
So it is closer to home that I must search for the peaceful things.
Sometimes the peaceful things come...
Just outside your door...



Friday, September 23, 2011

She Knits...

     When she was a little girl, she loved to pull open the bottom, right hand drawer, of the little pine dresser that stood in front of the old chimney wall along the side of the tiny dinning room.
     She knew it's contents by heart. At the back of this particular treasure stash, were all sorts of envelopes of embroidery patterns, with various small tins full to overflowing with floss of every imaginable color. Cloth measuring tapes, rolled up tight like miniature cinnamon rolls. Along with a few well worn packages of needles marked, 'Quilt',  'Embroidery',  'Darn',  and even the funny curved set of 'Upulstery', all of their little felt pieces pin gouged to near oblivion.
     Next came the two rectangular boxes resting end to end in a way that divided the drawers contents, inside each of them were all silver colored hooks on the left and bigger, pretty colored hooks on the right. Each had long handle's that you could hold onto with a little pinched flat spot at just past the halfway, closest to the hooked end. That was the spot that had raised lettering that read; BOYE SIZE 1BOYE SIZE H, or just a number stamped a little off center that would be something like; 2, 4, or 11. She would often rub her tiny fingertip over these letter's wondering what they meant. There was even a really, really, big hook that was once used to make rugs with. Or so her Momma told her.
Next came a group of multi colored balls of string sized yarn along with some bigger balls of plain colored yarns, she noticed each time that some of them matched her little red sweater.
     As a child she would practice holding some of the different hooks while pretending to move them around to create works of wonder. Sometimes Mother would sit her up on her lap, holding her larger hands over the tiny inexperienced finger's of her hands, gently moving both in the proper moves that would help turn a plain piece of yarn into a chain to be used for a game of 'cat's craddle'.
     But her favorite thing from that bottom drawer of treasures were the skinny coils of needles that lay on the top of the ping-pong sized yarn ball's in the front corner. The ones with the shining silver handles that were joined by various lengths of coated wire, they were tapered at the ends to form everything from tiny needles up to thicker, more sturdy sizes. Her favorite thing to do was to sit cross legged on the old linoleum floor with a pair of the smaller 'cable needles' in her hands, with them clicking crazily away in a hap-hazard profusion of sound.


     She is now many lifetimes older than that little girl self, she often pictures, through the sometimes gilded windows along the halls of her memories. Even now she can hear the rhythmic clicking of those silver plated knitting needles as they captured her undivided attention for what seemed, back then, to be hours of entertainment.
Tilting her head ever so slightly as her pictures this oft visited scene once more. It slowly dawns on her aging mind, she never recalled seeing those treasured item's in use. True. She was surrounded with many various evidences indicating the fact that, at one time, they were indeed brought to fruition with someones delft finger's and adapting inspiration.
Her absentminded smile is evidence still, of the love she knew was infused in copious quantities with every stitch, of every item, her memory longingly recalled. 
     In her late teens to early twenties, she had finally learned to do many forms of the handiwork held captured in that long ago bottom right hand drawer of treasures. She even added some, then unknown to her, forms of handy work to her steadily lengthening list of arts.
Cross stitch quickly becoming one of her most infuriatingly favorite pastimes. She never clearly understood how it came to be that she could count seven squares on the pattern, seven on the even weave fabric, and yet somehow in the doing, it just sometimes did not match up.
     She learned how to appreciate the work of her own hands in bringing beauty and humor into her home along with many homes of friends, family, and even a neighbor or two, in the same practical ways of of the women of her childhood.
     She laughs even now when she recalls her first ever attempt at a knitted sweater. She chose a fisherman's pattern and cream color yarn for the great making experience. It was with this project she learned about such things as the use of a cable needle, along with circular needles. Being the biggest project she had undertaken up to that point. She shakes her head even now, at the thought of how many times she had to undo often days worth  of knitting, in a fraction of the time that had been laboriously put into each stitch and row. The completed project was never actually worn by anyone. Probably because no one had that long of arms, with that amount of unevenness.
     While patterns were learned, understanding increased, adaptation abilities improved, something quietly and solidly crept inside of her, with each stitch, of each project, through all the years.

     She has her favorites now to knit. Her 'take along' projects are as much a part of her as her purse. Dish clothes that require little to no thought, are easy to take in any stage of progression, and when finished, will often find homes in the place each is finished, be it residence or Dr's. office.
     The most impressive, not to mention trickiest feat of accomplishments, she now has in her arsenal of skills, is the intimidating use of four or five double pointed needles. At once! To complete such things as hats and socks. 
     She has also come to realize, over the lifetimes of her knitting, it is not so much the finished project she is making, as it is the process of of creating, seeing the project come to fruition. Combined with the feel of the yarns tension, the comfortable touch as the knitting needles find their well worn home in her knowledgeable hands.
    She is the first to tell you there is a rhythm to be found in knitting, as comfortable as rocking a baby.
     She enjoys sitting down, indoors or out, putting her feet up when she can, while she picks up the smooth bamboo needles she has come to prefer for her sock knitting. She notices how the cares, tensions, and general weights of the world slip away as she begins to work. All thoughts turn instead, to the person the latest pair are being made for.  She knows with a surety that all of her love and prayers are knit along with each stitch. Often the rhythm of this combined process causes her eyelids to become as heavy as a hypnotists volunteer, slipping ever so softly closed, her counting becomes as even as her breathing. Her fingers have long since learned the feel of a stitch done right, as deftly as the awkward feel of  a stitch gone wrong. In which case she cracks one eye briefly open, to make sure her finger's are able to resolve the temporary glitch.
     She so enjoys the calming effects knitting has brought into her life. As comfortable now as the ticking of the big clock on the wall, or a warm blanket on a cold day. 
Knitting enhances the peacefulness of a porch swing, a breeze on a summers evening, as the privacy of her thoughts  dance to the cadence of her knit two, pearl two.

She is content when she knits.  

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Is It Fall?

It felt like Fall came two weeks ago Thursday at 5 p.m.
The air is beginning to turn crisp, bringing along a sudden longing for the smell of baking apples, and warm bread.
Trouble is...I like the coolness inside the house with the window's open right now much better than I like the smell of warm bread.

Honey and I have begun to put things to bed until next Summer.
The time for swimming pools and kayaking is drawing to a close.
With talk of flower beds and garden's discussing the successes and failure's of each.
Isn't a zucchini plant suppose to be able to feed a small country by itself?
Not ours the past two years...Why we have been lucky to get ten off of them. And that is a sad thing as we like it deep fried, stuffed and in with other summer time meals. I am very grateful to have a sister in law who has been sharing the bounty of their garden with us.
The marigolds have been busy, the children intrigued by them, they have been very happy to help harvest the numerous seeds they bring once they dry.... 

It did feel like Fall came two weeks ago Thursday at 5 p.m., bringing with it my strong wishes for a very lengthy Indian Summer. 

Monday, September 19, 2011

My Dream House

What is your idea of a dream house?

Lots of people dream of a big fancy house with all the right amenities while outside there are plenty of  gardens to wander, or a cabin in the mountains with very few neighbor's a pond to fish from while the horses amble about in the adjacent pasture...


Mine would be a little different than most I think.

My dream house is a little different than the ideas of most. You see I would like a little place that could house all my crafts, with room enough for a couple of big cozy over stuffed chair's and ottoman.
I've drooled over many a plan, searched through many a picture of shed's turned to back yard sanctuary, I have racked up ideas galore, in the event that I should wake up one day and all of Honey's previous To-Do's have all turned to Ta-Da's.

While many have caught my eye, none have caught my imagination quit as firmly as has the little two room that sits at the edge of my in-laws property...

It was used by the previous owner's as a sort of drag about dog house. When ever the Mr. was in the Mrs. bad graces, he would hitch up the house to his tractor then pull this little house, that he had conveniently built on sled's, to a spot on the property, either near of far, depending on the heat coming from the big house. Then when he was out of hot water, back he would come, parking the dog house at the edge of the property for the next time it may be needed...

I freely admit that the first time I saw this little house, I was plotting ways to take it home in the back seat of my car and place it in my own back yard, near a fountain with a pond, complete with a cute little front porch built onto it with two rocking chairs for morning and evening rocking... 





Yes, my freshly painted little white Dream House would have overflowing baskets of hanging flowers along the little wrap around porch, which would be lined with an intricate lathe turned railing. Housing two big comfortable cain seated rocker's in the front, while an antique ice cream table with a couple of chairs rested along the side.
Lace curtains would be seen peeking from inside the vinegar washed windows, gently blowing in the cooling breezes allowed in through each half screened portal. The gingerbread bedecked screen door protecting from the intrusion of unwanted insect guests as much as possible.

While inside the brightly painted interior, two cozy overstuffed's would invite you to come sit near the cook stove where the hot cocoa and fresh bread await us in winter, or in summer to hold our iced glasses of homemade lemonade, sandwiches and patterns, while putting our feet up to do handiwork, sketching and chatting.
Across the room would be a quilt recently 'put on', waiting for the 'girl's' to gather for a good old fashioned 'Bee' later on...
Through the door you would find three wall's lined floor to ceiling, with shelves of fabric, yarn's, painting supplies and book's. A cutting/painting table in the middle would make room for idea's to run as wild as imagination could allow. In a closet turned sewing area, side by side my treadle and the Brother, would comfortably sit waiting for the next project to begin.  

My dream house could hold one, two, or more, at any given time.
Gossip would be left off the front porch steps, only talk of validation, support and dreams would be heard in the conversations buzz.

That would be my dream house, nestled in the back yard, next to the fountain with the pond...

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Do What You Can...Even The Angel's Can Do No More...

Do you ever feel like you are going as fast as you can, doing as much as you can, and not getting anyplace?



Sometimes it seems like the hurrier I go the behinder I get.
It gets discouraging. But I have learned to persevere. Which in itself is a pretty big job sometimes. 
I plod along, reminding myself often that 'most household jobs only take five to fifteen minutes to complete'.
I'm not sure I fully believe that, it must have been calculated in a clean house, with no spouses, children or pets factored into the equation.

But in all fairness, I have taken to timing myself doing things, and am surprised that, indeed, when I am able to complete my self appointed projects, uninterrupted, they indeed take five to fifteen minutes.
Trouble is...
Once I complete one job, moving onto the next, somehow... And I'm not pointing any finger's, because it's usually the 'no-body's' running ramped again...I can do that same five minute job, seventeen times a day, and at the end...you simply can't tell.

I remember well the day Honey came through the door at the end of his work day, tired and exasperated, he climbed wearily to the top of the landing, where he chose this day, and this time to survey the house with a loud, reproachful declaration of, "What have you been doing all day?! This house looks just like it did when I left this morning!!"
Today had been a pretty good day.
I didn't crumble into a heap of blubbering tears. Neither did I scramble for reason's, excuses or vindication.
No.
Indeed this had been a good day.
Responding instead with pride oozing from my voice along with a big smile, "Really?! You think so?! It doesn't look worse? You think it really looks the same? That means I did a really good job today! I am so glad you didn't miss it."
Obviously taken aback he just stood there looking at me like I had lost one of my few remaining marbles, swallowed twice, flexed the muscle in his jaw once, then quietly responded with, "What, are you talking about?"

I was quick to list all the things I had done that day. Complete with who's help...Was pleased as punch to let him know that besides being able to maintain the present level of tornado touch downs in a household of young children, I had also managed to bake my very first loaves of bread that didn't weigh in at a ton a piece.
AND...
I know right?!
I had dinner ready to come out of the oven in five minutes.

I'm sure he was thinking I really had lost my allotment of marbles. But it did cause him to look at the things I had done.
As the kids swarmed in from the yard in an air of fresh blown country bug gathering, skateboarding boo-boos, bike crashes and near starvation for the seventieth time that day, it was noticed that all were healthy, happy, and wearing clean-ish clothes.

Honey didn't have to try to hard to picture the day...it was playing out before his eye's.

We have talked about that day often through out the years. We both learned a lot of lesson's from it, still are for that matter.

I have a feeling today might be one of those day's where we hug each other at the end of the day and whisper to each other...
"I really did do a good job today. I am sorry you missed it."

Monday, September 12, 2011

Friends

Friends often come into our lives in as various way's as the friends themselves.
Some friends stay for short times, some are with us forever. Some we are related to, other's we chose, and some? We meet unexpectedly, by circumstance, or chance.
All friends are welcomed into a place in our hearts.
I have had the opportunity to make many acquaintance's in life, not all are destined to become friends, some have taken time to be warmed into friendships. While some seem like we have been friends forever upon first meeting.
True friendship is ageless.
I have friends who knew me before I was born-they knew my parents first. I have held some friends in my arms as newborns them selves.

Sitting on a park bench over the week end with one of my dearest friend's, we talked about a lot of things she wants to do, a lot of things I want to do.
She encourages my crazy schemes every bit as much as I do hers. We validate each other by sanctioning, confirming and approving each other's dreams, goal's and idea's. 
She is an amazing young woman. She would be surprised to know that she is, and has been on my heroine list, as one of the women of distinguished courage and ability, admired for her brave deeds and noble qualities. 



There are so many strong women in my life, who make me richer for knowing them.
Not one of them the same.
Each with differing dreams, abilities, strength's, and so much wisdom!
There are also some very amazing gentlemen who are included amongst my bouquet of friends, hero's, heroine's, and co-conspirator's...

A friend is someone who knows all about you,
and still likes you.



Friday, September 9, 2011

Sticky Troubles...



This time of the year there are a few things that always scare me.

One especially comes to mind when school starts.

When I was in elementary school, I lived close enough to walk. I loved to walk to and from, with my friends, or alone.
That is except past the vacant lot where the weeds were tall and hung out over the edges of the sidewalk.
Back in the day we wore red, or white, knee high, cable knit sock's. They were sort of heavy.
Well every single time I would walk, ok run at top speed, past that lot, it happened every single time...



At least one, if not more, of these ugly, icky things would find me. Sticking firmly to my sock, skirt of *shiver*...land on my head!
I would shriek, slapping at the offender, running helter skelter past another lot or more.
It took me a while to figure out that if I threw my book bag down...I would have to go back and get it.
That would just restart the process.
If I swung the bag around to ward off those barb footed hoppers, I usually ended up smacking myself in that process.
Finally I got it figured out that if I just closed my eye's and ran really fast past, brushed my hand above the grass hopper's and locusts, that would give them enough incentive to hop off on their own volition.

Sometimes it  was so hard to wait for them to leave on their own.

Being older and supposedly wiser... I have found that grass hopper fears come disguised as other things too. Some of them pretty big and pretty scary. Some of the things make me want to do all of those things I did when a particularly ugly hopper would attach itself to me.
It has taken me some time to figure out that some scary things don't leave when invited to do so, they just need to be given time to work themselves out. Some of the troubles need to be looked at from a distance...



Sometimes that is very hard. to do. 

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Some Of My Cooking Stories...

I am not stretching the truth when I say I am not a great cook. I don't even consider myself a good cook...most of the time.
But every once and again I surprise even myself!

Having mastered cookies, after forgetting to put oatmeal in my oatmeal raisin cookies and having to call my mom, in tears, to ask why mine didn't look like hers always did. She had me read through the recipe with her, I continued to bake while I went over it, when we got to the last item on the list of ingredient's, and the last batch in the oven to bake, it dawned on me that I had forgotten, the most important ingredient. She taught me to laugh and try again.

I have totally given up on any kind of jam making, except for freezer jam. Strawberry and raspberry to be exact.
Yes I have a story for that too.
After conquering cookies, I got the hair brained idea, a few years later, to try my hand at peach jam.
Not a good thing.
But it did turn out to be pretty good syrup. We used it on pancakes and ice cream. for a couple of years.
Then a whole lot of years later, I got the jam making itch again. This time I thought I would make apricot jam with a nut floating in it like my Grandma used to make. Just like my mom's story had told me, how good it was and how much fun they had seeing who would get the treat of getting the nut.
I got a bushel of apricots, jam bottles, and all the necessities for the project. Called my mom, before starting for a few pointer's, then went to work.
She called me the next day to see how it turned out.
Informing her that I would never again, in this life, undertake such a project, she inquired about it. I told her it took stinking long to stand there at the sink and peel all the skins off those little things! She laughed so hard I could almost hear the tear's dripping off her chin! Upon regaining some of her composure, she choked out that you don't peel them you just cut off the bad parts and leave the rest on and blend them along with the fruit.
The skinless apricot syrup was, again, used for pancakes and ice cream, until it too was used up.
Freezer jam, I can do and it works every time. I'm sticking with that.

So you can imagine my surprise when I cook something and it works out, looks good and tastes good too.

Another confession here is that I like the taste of bell pepper's but I don't like the texture of eating them. Also I don't much care to eat them stuffed. It seems it's always just a fancy way to slip a meatloaf past  unsuspecting folks.
But years and years ago.
Back to the cookie lesson day's.
I was at a group luncheon where a different kind of stuffed peppers were served, along with the recipes for them. I tried the one I liked best, at home, and they turned out good.
I put the recipe up and forgot about it until the other day.
I dug through my oldest recipe gathering folder searching for 'Ham and rice stuffed peppers'. I couldn't find it, so I googled it. And between all of them I sort of came up with my own.

I bought 8 of the biggest bell peppers I could find, in red and green, then to work I went.
I still think they are the perfect way to eat a Summer stuffed bell pepper.






I can't tell you amounts of ingrediants, but I can give you the list of them.
Precooked rice. Diced ham, greated colby jack cheese, sauted onion, celery, zuchinni (because I had a lot of them). I mixed all that up in a big bowl and stuffed 2 pepper's (Because I'm allergic to them), then I added fresh from the garden diced tomatoes to the rest. I cleaned out the seeds and white stuff from the peppers and rinsed them out and let them drain, before stuffing them. Then I put them in a cake pan (my 2 in a bread loaf pan), and filled the bottom with water, up to a little over half way up the peppers. Baked at 325 degrees for 30 minutes.

I'm not a great cook. But every once and again I surprise even myself :)

p.s. Honey ate my bell pepper's for me and let me eat just the middles ;)

Monday, September 5, 2011

Lasts

Fall is in the air.
It came on Thursday night last week, and hasn't left yet, so I think its here to stay.
Also this having been Labor Day Week End, it was that last big chance to go do something, thus bringing an end to the Summer.



Honey and I went along with some of the other *minions successfully doing a few end of season things. On the drive back to reality we were discussing, 'lasts'.

If you knew something would be a 'last', would you enjoy it more? Would you *relish it more in the doing?
Would we just assume it will always be the same, thus not paying it any attention?


Would you notice more of the detail's? 
Would you be more attentive?
Search out the hidden treasures in the experience?
The sounds, smells, and feelings?


It got me to wondering, about life in general, as well as in some specifics.


Do I remember the last cartwheel I turned? The last time I played on a slip n slide? The last time I rode my bike backwards? (It took me all one summer to master that little trick!) The last time I walked on stilts, or jumped on a pogo stick? Hiked up to the mine?
If this were my last time kayaking, would it have been something I would remember.
It was at least, 36 years, since the last time I was at the lake where we went kayaking on Sunday.
We had gone boating with some high school friends, the driver of the boat, was the driver because it was his dad's boat. He took one quick trip around to see who was on the water and to see where water skiing could be done. Coming back in to fast, turning to sharp, the boat was out of the water flying to its stop on the wooden dock sideways,  the group of temporary inhabitants having dove haphazardly into the water from all angles.
The driver jumped out putting his hands on his hips in Peter Pan fashion throwing back his head to laugh, yelling out, "You should have seen your faces! You looked so funny jumping!".  The boat lost its rudder in the process, but not being *deterred by such insignificant things (cough, cough), the boat was pushed back into the water, away he went for another test run before we started to ski.
Honey felt so bad, he had lost his little kissing couple we had gotten for each of us at Logan's Run. *sigh* Young love. 
That was a memorable day indeed.

But this time, if I never go back, will I have had a sufficiently good time? Did I enjoy it to the fullest?

I have been pondering these, and other things for quite some time now.

Lasts.

It has changed the way I look at things, the way I interact with people, the way I treat myself...

Because like the song says, "We may never pass this way again"...




Minions = a servile follower or subordinate of a person in power. A favored or highly regarded person.
Relish =  pleasurable appreciation of anything;
Deterred = to discourage or restrain from acting or proceeding:

Lasts

Fall is in the air.
It came on Thursday night last week, and hasn't left yet, so I think its here to stay.
Also this having been Labor Day Week End, it was that last big chance to go do something, thus bringing an end to the Summer.



Honey and I went along with of the other *minions successfully doing a few end of season things. On the drive back to reality we were discussing, 'lasts'.

If you knew something would be a 'last', would you enjoy it more? Would you *relish it more in the doing?
Would we just assume it will always be the same, thus not paying it any attention?



Would you notice more of the detail's? 
Would you be more attentive?
Search out the hidden treasures in the experience?
The sounds, smells, and feelings?


It got me to wondering, about life in general, as well as in some specifics.


Do I remember the last cartwheel I turned? The last time I played on a slip n slide? The last time I rode my bike backwards? (It took me all one summer to master that little trick!) The last time I walked on stilts, or jumped on a pogo stick? Hiked up to the mine?
If this were my last time kayaking, would it have been something I would remember.
It was at least, 36 years, since the last time I was at the lake where we went kayaking on Sunday.
We had gone boating with some high school friends, the driver of the boat, was the driver because it was his dad's boat. He took one quick trip around to see who was on the water and to see where water skiing could be done. Coming back in to fast, turning to sharp, the boat was out of the water flying to its stop on the wooden dock sideways,  the group of temporary inhabitants having dove haphazardly into the water from all angles.
The driver jumped out putting his hands on his hips in Peter Pan fashion throwing back his head to laugh, yelling out, "You should have seen your faces! You looked so funny jumping!".  The boat lost its rudder in the process, but not being *deterred by such insignificant things (cough, cough), the boat was pushed back into the water, away he went for another test run before we started to ski.
Honey felt so bad, he had lost his little kissing couple we had gotten for each of us at Logan's Run. *sigh* Young love. 
That was a memorable day indeed.

But this time, if I never go back, will I have had a sufficiently good time? Did I enjoy it to the fullest?

I have been pondering these, and other things for quite some time now.

Lasts.

It has changed the way I look at things, the way I interact with people, the way I treat myself...

Because like the song says, "We may never pass this way again"...




Minions = a servile follower or subordinate of a person in power. A favored or highly regarded person.
Relish =  pleasurable appreciation of anything;
Deterred = to discourage or restrain from acting or proceeding:

Sunday, September 4, 2011

She & Me

It's hard to picture her young.

Its hard to picture her old.

It's hard to picture her gone.

I still catch myself heading for the phone to talk to her.

To tell her a joke.

See something at the store ,"I should pick up" for her.

Today she would be 92 years old.

When she was my age, she would become a widow in 5 months. Remaining so for thirty three more years.

She was much more brave than I ever knew.

She was stronger and much smarter that I ever gave her credit for.

She gave up dreams for me.

She taught me to dream.

She was a very talented woman.

She was a broken woman.

I still learn from her every day.

I miss hugging her, and kissing her on the cheek.

Happy Birthday Momma...




Sept. 5, 1919 ~ Jan. 30, 2005

Friday, September 2, 2011

Changes In The Air...

School has started. 
Nights are coming faster and cooler.
Fair's are winding down.
Various crops are being gathered in.
We are starting to look for the fruit stands to be busting at the seams with all the produce everyone needs to start 'botteling' things for the coming months.
And the honey should be just about ready to go buy from the honey man in town.
Funny how you can feel the changes in your bones.